Been thinking back over the past week. Over what I've experienced over with the paya lebar methodist people... Interesting to note that the way things are done are different from the way we do things. Most of their methods and procedures are alot better than ours. But I still believe that Charis is where I'll stay. One outstanding thing I'd like to note is our worship ministry. I believe that we've come further in that aspect than most other churches. Most improved worship award? Haha...

I'm not trying to compare to say which church is better but I just think that there are things which we can learn. Especially in terms of encouragement and edification. Over there, they are not afraid to give an encouraging word. I'm not saying that they kiss one another's asses. (They do tell you if you suck!) But they do it in a loving way.

The Christian walk is a tough one. And one of the responsibilities of the church is to spur one another on. Why is it we've started thinking that by encouraging a brother or sister in Christ, we are inflating their ego? Why have we perverted what the Word of God says? I've lost count the number of times the word 'encourage' has appeared in the bible. (A search on bible gateway shows 59 results)

Been distracted lately by certain circumstances. Even though I know that things are unlikely to turn out right. And I have this feeling in my spirit that I'll get my heart torn again if I let myself fall in. But then again, its always easier said than done.

And again I look at the surface. And I remember what happened the last time. I'm behaving like I was never beaten down. Walking back into the lion's den like a foolish man.
She doesn't love my God as much as I do. She doesn't honor him like I do. She doesn't believe in Him like I do. She doesn't care about God like I do. And yet again, I'm walking this path without any earthly partner by my side. And I know its not the time now. Just because there isn't anyone as crazy about God as I am. And God... I'm laying down this desire. You know its for you. You know its difficult. You know the dreams that I've crucified. But I dare not claim that its a big deal. Nothing can compare to your Sacrifice. But remember me Lord. Remember me as I crucify the desires of my flesh.